"This is the biggest and most important day of my life." I thought to myself.
The palms of my hands were sweaty and there was a multitude of things flowing through my mind.
"What if no one likes me?"
"Does my outfit look ok?"
I was positive that the fate of the rest of my life depended on this day, and it was up to me to make the very best of it. I stood for a second and mentally and fully prepared myself to take on what was ahead. I straightened up my back, stood a little taller, and walked with pride right into Holbrook Park Elementary School. That kindergarten class did not know what they had coming. .
For thirteen years of my life I have had the same routine. That routine consisted of waking up, going to school five days a week for 180 days, enjoying two months of summer vacation, and then returning back to school to start it all over again. That is all I've ever known. Over the course of these thirteen years I've been given the chance to learn from numerous superb teachers, create life long friendships, and make a plethora of memories which I will carry and cherish with me always.
It blows my mind to try and comprehend the fact that in just three short weeks I will be walking out of Holbrook High School for the very last time. There will be no more walking down the halls with my friends during passing time, no Friday night lights or games in the gym, no walking late to class past Mr. Nielson hoping he won't yell at you, and that sigh of relief you feel when you actually get to experience him smile at you; there will be no more of any of that.
I had myself convinced that I was completely and utterly over the entire school scene. I would sit in class watching the clock and counting down the days until May. The thought of graduation brought me so much joy, for I couldn't wait until the day I get to move on and start that new chapter in my life. Now that the month of May has finally approached, I'm not as anxious as I thought I would be. The feelings that I've had all year still burn inside of me; however, I've also begun to feel anxiety and a tiny bit scared. Holbrook is all I've ever known and in just a little while I'm going to be thrown out into the world and have to face it all on my own.
I'm a small town girl from Holbrook, Arizona who is about to take on this crazy and scary world. Of course there will be trials and tribulations along the way, but that's just how is goes. I have no doubt that if I was able to own that first day of kindergarten, I will be able to take this great leap and soar.
I love that you made the connection to kindergarten when in just a very short weeks the class of 2016 will be walking across that stage in front of our friends and families and we are actually done with high school. I do not remember much about my child hood but I still get a little glimpse of it when I am reminded of those mostly embarrassing moments that my family only seems to remember. In a matter of weeks we are done with public school and our childhood will soon disappear behind us as we begin the life of bills and college. That is terrifying to me but you may be better prepared than I am at this point and with that I wish you good luck on your journey after high school, Alex. Great blog as well.
ReplyDeleteI always wanted to be done with high school since freshman year. But now that I'm a senior, I wish I was still a small freshman. I remember Phaturos always saying high school is going to go by fast. I never believed him until now. Two more weeks!!! Two more weeks for me to decide if I want to back to college or start working? I'm scared at the thought of being alone and making my own big decisions. As of now, I can't make any decisions without asking my mom what she thinks. I like how confident you were in Kindergarten. I really enjoyed your kindergarten flashback! I thought this was a wonderful blog post. I know you will own your great leap!! :)
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